The point to living the, abstract of the cave, Panopticonal prisons prisming a bleak existence; Ideas of meaning (,) for what we truly are-- Nebulous reasoning of absolute truths beyond the stars. I speak of reason, though never question why We still cannot explain the happenings beneath the sky. Our god is thorough, his plan is divine, But still these secrets kept away from us with inferior minds Imagine morals (,) and how they came to be Is it not normal to differentiate human beings From lower species (a subjective term)? A lesson taught by many but I can never learn They speak of shadows as though they weren’t real The tangibility is something they don’t seem to feel They seek for something far greater than themselves A place where evidence can prove that this is truly Hell Speak to me Child of the free War in my head between Life and reality Free me please from that which I cannot define Guide my soul tonight, enlighten an innocent mind Spirits to guide me through empowering mindfulness Fears come incarnate all foreshadowing lifelessness I am king of my own domain, master of my own fate No voice greater than God has a right to cut me short Speak to me Child of the free War in my head between Life and death, both in their stead I can’t begin to see my own stupidity Free me please from that which I cannot define Guide my soul tonight, enlighten an innocent mind

Why Push the boy out of the plane before He can know what's happening Tape the death and view the suffering Left for all to see the pain I've invoked my only choice to be Something that you want me to be Demon formed your eyes so you can be free Change your mind on what you mean to me Viral lie that slowly turns to truth Can't assume it's black or white Justice reigns as equalizer, but Can I say what's truly right? Forced into a ceasefire before I could start tally deaths Truce instated only just until I can finally see it all *dead* This is only a dream, this is only a dream This is not happening, I cannot let it be\ I won’t let this happen to me I wish I gave more for your time I wish I'd never tried to fight the tears prolong the suffering Let this pain become your light I kissed my memories all good bye I bid them all away I wish you’d see into my eyes Let me keep you, I need you to stay Of course I’m Happier this way! “Hey baby how’re you doing?” WHY CAN’T I FEEL ANYTHING WHY’RE THEY ALL LAUGHING AT ME I can feel voices yelling at me now saying YOU ARE WRONG what am I even doing? Fucked up minds/heathens gather for the retrograding CELEBRATE lives are sold to *Satan!* Times have changed pushed me to the point of shunning my own BITCH FUCK YOU what does this look like, church? End one life then another and another and another and. . . . I WANT TO SEE US ALL DEAD To grow into a better place To feel the time slip away And I can not begin to say What it means to be awake it's all that's ever in my head It's all that I can think It's all too much to comprehend It's all too much to live this life with Oh, You wanted out, but I wasn’t done with you yet Justice has to be served! Who else but me could take the burden? Hi Now embrace the void and seek the dark’s call Indulge in thoughts of hate Demonize the ones that cared for us Don’t you dare to speak their name All we want is is her to love again Let me mend the open wound Listen now she’s speaking to me!! She speaks to me! I wish you cared more for my mind I wish you’d never tried to Fight so much, prolonged my suffering Made me hate the morning light I tried to give you what you need You chose to push me away There’s nothing left for me in your Psycho-manic day-to-day I needed you to keep me sane You chose to throw me away I couldn’t bare to see My own self staring back at me Why can’t you look within your heart Remember who we used to be Have you a shred of care for me? She responded tremblingly No this isn’t how it’s meant to be (there’s nothing I can be) Let me prove that we’re unbreakable (to mend your insecurities) Fuck you make me want to off myself (Embrace the crooked line) Now I want to see us all dead (This healing will have ended when we die) I left you when my time was done, There’s no one here to blame Discussing fault will lead to loss Just let me see your face You need to be yourself again I need to let you be I need to see myself become More than what you will ever get to see

I omit Everything Hoping the memories Fade Breath of air Envelope me 'Til I reach Nirvana ***Why can't I escape these thoughts of an awful place from better days Grovel beneath for the chance they'll stay, to hear them say I would take Anything Shaking hand to Head Lacerating me My paradise Pour from Eye *** I see you. Now I'd end my happiness for a taste of a dream I'd throw a lamp to chase the shining light in the dark Cleaned by chance and dirtied by my own device (This life isn't made to be fair) I seek my own implied infatuation (I'd leave but would I care?) ***

Mundane Insomniac! Teenaged and wasting away! Your friendly pedophile! Decaying nasturtium! A father leaves his child! A mother abusing her kid! A State that leaves no questions! THIS IS OUR REALITY! Sit here and die alone or run away? But they will find me there: I choose to stay. Guide me my lord above. Save me from those I love. A child’s broken heart should not be torn apart. Fortune has granted me a second chance. My fam’ly’s torn apart, (but) somebody rescues me. I now admit my act of silent crime. A new arrival to a new collector: now it’s time. I long for love I long for love Turning words of merrymaking into lies for God’s forsaking No one’s there to save the child: He’s gone in pain, he’s been beguiled. Broken heart and shattered life Leaves the ones that he loves. Love to hate, and hate to fear, (but) fearing to fall in love. Guide me my lord above. Save me from those I love. A child’s broken heart should not be torn apart. -At night I no longer dreamed, nor did I let my imagination work during the day. -When I fell asleep, my soul became consumed in a black void. -I no longer awoke in the mornings refreshed: I awoke tired, telling myself that I had one day less to live -With no dreams, I found that words like hope and faith were only letters, randomly put together into something meaningless--words only for fairy tales. You’re in my domain. I keep your name. I am your god you are my slave in my domain. I keep your name. I am your god you are my SLAAAAAAVVVVEEEE! you are my SLAAAAAAVVVVEEEE! (3x) - (Run) Run away at your own risk. Just a boy and nothing less. Cope the pain and slit the wrist. Face the wrath of Burden’s fist. -(into the night!) Save the people, kill the king. Send you up aloft on wings of Air toxic just to breathe. WHY DOES HE EVEN WEAR THE RING?!? -(And still we run!) Feel the triumph through and through. Feel the beast and how it moves. Captured once again, it seems. Wilderness will not consume. (Run!) It returns with prey in hand. Still the boy is glad he ran. Feel contempt, the greatest one. Feel. Your. Hate. Don’t. Hide. Just. Run.

Time became still, the hunt has engaged Demons are lurking tonight Over the hills the soothsayer lays Quelling the dark of the night The time has now come that we pillage the heathens for Neighboring villages sins Justice has action through me and my sword as I Fight for the Lord against evil tonight Morning will rise, as ever it does. I will not question his light Gods among men have chosen their sides Forcing our peoples to fight The path becomes worn as we pillage the heathens for Neighboring villages’ sins Justice has action through me and my sword as I Fight for the Lord against evil tonight You think me a demon? How silly and trite Wait and see what lies in their shire They threaten my family and homeland tonight It’s time for these fuckers to die The path becomes worn as we pillage the heathens for Neighboring villages’ sins Justice has action through me and my sword as I Fight for the Lord against evil tonight Blood begets blood as they shame our religion and Spit in the face of our God Leaving this earth is the best we can do for them Come, you Mundane, and let steel end your fright Child at heart Heathen apart No turning back Gone from the start Lost in the maze Drown in the daze Falling in fright Crawling at night Shoot for the stars Land on a rock Freedom will fail Victory will mock Stolen away Nothing to harm I need to attack I need to sound the alarm Fortune can beat me all it wants but I haven’t let it take away my will to somehow survive Structure can beat me all it wants but I haven’t let it take away my will to somehow survive My own mind can beat me all it wants but I haven’t let it take away my will to somehow survive Cassie can beat me all she wants but I’ll never let her take away my will to somehow survive Cassie can beat me all she wants but I’ll never let her take away my will to somehow survive Cassie can beat me all she wants but I’ll never let her take away my will to somehow survive Cassie can beat me all she wants but I’ll never let her take away my will to somehow survive Cassie can beat me all she wants but I’ll never let her take away my will to somehow survive Frenzy of fright when she tells me she’s leaving She spit in the face of our love Love became hate when she chose to transgress us so Come you Mundane, and let me end your life

Who can all decide Which deserves to die? Why am I the bene- Factor in this murder Where do morals lie? What’s the point for life? Pleasure in these screams of “JACKIE PLEASE DON’T HURT HER” Life is but a path Leading to the end Who’s to say that I’m not Part of some great being’s Plan the perfect time Pick a mourning crime Think ahead to where the Blood will stain and clean my Thoughts begin to ponder Will I ever see the End of her if I can Not console my final Thoughts of pleading begging Her to give me one more Chance to prove that I’m the Perfect candidate for Loving self is futile Hating is another Will my sisters ever Fear to face their brother Leave a mother bare and Broken, daughter torn to Shreds by my own hand--would I survive this fright of mine? Cassie! She Speaks to me! But I can’t find the words save her fate Beaten and broken the heart of this child still remains Lost in the warfare the memories of youth show their face Babe let me show you the err of my ways sure to change Stay with my darling I need you to know that I’ve Always cared I still love you No? Fine. Walk you through the actions that would lead to this demise I systematic’lly approached and put the car in drive as I begun this massacre of one; Hit her once to knock her down then Pin her legs beneath the wheels so there is no escape in sight Park the car on Cassie’s bod and grab the bass guitar That’s sat behind the driver’s seat encased in skin of snake that will not serve us now and with all might SMASH HER LIMBS WITH CARCASS OF OAK Make her suffer more! You need to break her arms Take her hand in mine and feel her scratch for freedom’s sake As I now contemplatively begin to pound her ribs and stain the body red of both guitar and heart SMASH HER HEAD IN Movement ceases now as she is nothing but a husk of flesh that Once was everything but now deserves the rot of hell to gaze into her soul and recognize My Broken Heart and Shattered mind Yes! They can all see what you’ve done now! Judgement has been wrought from the heavens through my hands. Regrets will never subside for what I’ve done, but my actions are those of the almighty. The world will know your name as the harlot who chose wrong. Berlioz has nothing on me, I am not passion. I am Mundane! I need to face my family one day I never meant to do this to her How will my brother think of my name Love in his heart or hate the fame? He’s becoming more unstable He’s learned to recognize the warning signs but He doesn’t give a shit when We are the only voices in his mind Cassie! (repeat a lot) Mundane Insomniac! Teenaged and wasting away! Your friendly pedophile! Decaying nasturtium! A Lover kills his spouse! This contract torn into pieces! A mind that asks all questions! THIS IS OUR REALITY! Guided by my lord above Saved me from those I love To mend this broken heart He let me tear Cassie apart He let me tear Cassie apart Crucified by the light in the dark But now I can’t go home tonight To where will I seek refugee? Just kill yourself That’s it! I will end my fucking life, oh joy! WAIT-ing to mention the Questions of reasons of Timings and answers of Treason’s disaster Time Resolute in my decay!r Fractals of ether Decay from deceivers The forefront of living is Prolonging life until death More for the mind of our king What’s a throne if you’ve killed the queen? Guide me to something greater Healing is underrated I See the answer in me Take a look in my mind “Communism isn’t that bad” “Keep digging” “Guitar is fucking stupid” “A bit further” “Fucking a goat should be legal” “Almost there” “The answer to life is sodomy” “This is it!” Fuck yourself right in the ass, cus We will not relive the past We’ve given to your shit far too long, so Fuck yourself Cassie didn’t need to die, but Why should I continue my Needless suffering of life when I can simply swallow all these PILLS RIGHT NOW Quickly face the void with EYES UNBOUND Realize my fate is MY OWN FAULT Masturbate before I OVERDOSE I can swallow all these PILLS RIGHT NOW Quickly face the void with EYES UNBOUND Realize my fate is MY OWN FAULT Masturbate before I DIE! It’s time to fucking DIE! It’s time to kill. My. SELF! Selfishness is worth-a-less if Nothingness is practically in- Vading my personal space and Fucking up my feng shui Balance is impeccable, I Am a Libra, don’t you know? So Fuck it all the greatest rest is Swallowing swallowing swallowing pills Nothingness can suck a dick, I’m Going out before it hits that This is all I’ll ever get de- Spite my screams for Cassie I’m about to overdose on Flavored gummy vitamins Yes he’s just killed himself! And now he’s dead as heck ha you thought Running away from the pain in my heart Is the only escape in the deepest of thoughts as I Question a mind that would kill for ‘em self Am I less of a man for the voices I quelled Let me end this now so I can Get on with my lack of life and Finally learn to let her go Her memory won’t invade my death NO WE NEED TO LIVE SO WE CAN PROVE THAT WE’RE THE STRONGEST ALIVE WE CANNOT LET THE SMALLEST OF WOMEN DESTROY THE NAME WE LEAVE BEHIND I think that we should go inject some crystal meth (who the fuck/whose mans is this??) Circumcised of my weakness But the foreskin haunts my dreams And despite my impeccable choice of metaphors I can’t get her out of my head Once again at my weakest But the pills won’t do me in Sir Cobain had the right idea When he went out It’s time to get her out of my head Shoot your face off Do it asshole Fuck this feeling She spoke to me And I asked her to say my name Soul of mine please I need you to show your face I’ve always cared I will always love you

FUCK ME IN THE ASS SO I CAN FEEL LIKE THERE IS SOMETHING REAL INSIDE OF ME

No more tears to shed today Time has passed and people drift away The sand of time falling evenly My Shoulders Crumble to their weight No more time to waste on hate The world around me turns incessantly There is no makeup lesson timed You miss the train, you better jump into the line I can see the light tonight Shining effervescently The end is far from here we stand but I can see this time will come to pass I can feel you on my lips The name instinctively is emphasized Familiar actions different lines I only wish that you’d come clean of your crimes FOR A MOMENT IN TIME I FORGOT WHAT YOU DID TO ME I WAS NORMAL IF BUT FOR A SINGLE SECOND IN TIME You can’t educate this mind on what is right or wrong (I’m fucked if I let you down easy) We are enemies of life and love beheld in pain (slit your throat and crash the car into the nothing of death) I can see the light tonight Shining effervescently The end is far from here we stand but I can see this time will come to pass

I’ve been taught how to breathe. Took the same steps every day. I didn’t need to be. Do I still need to be? Breathe, Ohmm Why do I need to breathe when I’m thankful for nothing else? I didn’t have to leave. God, why’d you let me leave Forced to hold it within Let it out, embrace your human skin I’ve been taught how to breathe, been neglected of finer things Never learned how to love, Never learned how to end this love Why do I need to breathe if they think of me lesser than It’s time to leave, God don’t let this hurt please

why

Threw myself into the void. To prove I would never be destroyed. Simple inklings of a boy speak that I’m Alive. And I’m free tonight. (I’m alive.) Never saw her lookin’ ‘ere She couldn’t overcome my fear left for last in longing’s tide. She says I’m Alive And I’m free tonight. (I’m alive.) The time is here: their stars are crossed but time never meant to drop its cause feelings forfeited, questioning Am I Alive? I’m not free tonight. (I’m alive) I’m not free at all (I’m alive) Never meant to take the time to question Time and my Demise. We ask this question of ourselves; Am I ready now to die? I’ve been pampered all my life. I laid it down to make it right. The Sacrifice was taken in front of my eyes, But I never got to say goodbye. Am I Free (to live my life?) Am I free tonight (to live my life?)

I don’t know what I wanted from the start Justice speaks to me “hold this grudge til death would do you part” Together we’ll fall, And Forever I’ll fall in love with you. Time evolves Questions Linger on Before life became clear False lenses Depict what I’ve always dreamed But it’s all been stripped away I saw God, He was smaller than I (tantalized by power he was nothing but a man) Man is naught but a useless name that holds no pow’r nor gift Cleaned of all my faults, speak to me, I need you here Keep my still as I’m thrown towards the seas Turmoil and Torment subdued before thee Hold me still for my storm carries on Thunderous but certain you’ll push me along Nothing is amounting to the pain within this Minds collide Just accept that I’m Always going to be the most superior person to ever exist I thought there was no god, but suddenly now I am equal to everyone else Is choice to make and I am freed of all my circumstance The light evades your grasp (only those who I deem worthy get to stand before me and my kingdom now) Now becomes the death of heat and cold becomes my currency The choices made are only proxy for inevitable de- Mise (eyes) turned skyward wait to hear from god but only see the sun will never rise again I can see that the sky’s been born anew Day has washed away all the hurt and sorrow in my view If only I’d rise And forgive the new tears that well her eyes